Ok. Gradually and steadily. It's probably better to have a steady stream of people coming in and becoming acclimated to the game than a huge burst all at once that disrupts the community atmosphere Uru has.
Sorry for overreacting. I'm just emotional sometimes.
I'm not going to do anything severely self-destructive, I'm not going to overreact too much, and I'm not going to leave entirely though I think there are some things I ought to shut up about.
You are good people and I am sorry for being so weird. I have a whole laundry list of mental illnesses so I am an emotionally fragile, seriously flawed person.
I won't keep pouring money into the ad campaign, but I will let the amount I've already spent run its course. If I ever do advertising in the future I'll make sure it is not in any way anything close to "spam", not that this was spam but much of it wasn't particularly likeable advertising either.
As for taking criticism, I need to learn that, yeah. I'm highly neurotic and have OCD, so any critique I receive gets looped through my head about twenty times or so and I sort of let it condemn me.
God has to constantly keep telling me he loves me, he cares about me, I'm not horrible, etc, though it is sometimes hard to believe him.
(crying)
It is important to recognize the innate value of all human beings as God's creation (oneself and others), people Jesus cared about so much that he died for us - to let God define who people are and how much they are worth instead of allowing people to define who people are.
I need to base my identity on what God says. Not what I feel or what I say/think or what the devil says or what others say.
That is one of a laundry list of my personal weaknesses.
I am a terrible example of a Christian; the story of my life is not about anything good that I did or was but all the times God forgave me and loved me even at my absolute worst, and gave me enough strength to keep living when I felt discouraged, hopeless, emotionally and psychologically wrecked.
I don't want to preach, I just want to say from experience that God is good even though I'm not; don't let my bad behavior and my failure as a Christian (and indeed, the sin and judgemental actions of any other Christians) harm your view of Jesus himself because he really is kind and good and compassionate.
And to all of you I want to say I'm really sorry and I will learn from this; any time I make an estimate in the future I must make VERY clear that it is an estimate and not actual data; and I will learn that Uru ought to be grown steadily, not all at once, through promotional methods that do not annoy people.
_________________ Matthew L. Hornbostel, creator of Panoramic Worlds, a Myst fansite, and various other stuff.
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